Limerence.
I learned this word recently and its been stuck in my head. From what I've gathered, limerence is an intense romantic attachment or infatuation. Essentially, a really powerful crush.
As I reviewed the ladies of my past, I think I may have been feeling limerence. I've always been kind of passionate, that's just how I am. Most girls that I was romantically involved with, whether I was dating them or just crushing, made me feel pretty intense. And I expressed this to them. Surprisingly, I'm actually pretty good with words. It's cause I'm just a straight up dude. I'm honest, and if at any given moment I feel particularly attracted to you or compelled to compliment you, I'll let you know. Apparently, chicks dig that.
But I feel that an important distinction needs to be made here. Limerence is NOT actual love. And although I felt intense attraction and attachment to the ladies that have been in my life, I may not have actually been in love with any of them. Just limerent.
Interesting...